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Oct. 18th, 2004 05:57 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
spokenjadethings i think before going to sleep
Didn't I used to be the girl who cried over the idea of being late to school?
Didn't I used to be the girl who wrote poetry that everyone found brilliant?
Didn't I used to have AIM profiles that would get stolen by others, because they were so cool?
Didn't I used to go outside all of the time, riding my bike/walking/roller blading and singing?
Didn't I used to not be able to go anywhere without people knowing who I was? ("Hi Jasmine!" "Who are you? o_O")
Didn't I used to sing at the top of my lungs in shopping malls at Christmas, even though I knew I sung off-key?
Didn't I used to climb trees and save cats?
Didn't I used to call my grandmother every day?
Didn't I used to get called pretty every single day?
Didn't I used to get more sleep?
Didn't I used to update my livejournal at least once a day?
Didn't I used to have my LJ compared to a novel?
Didn't I used to feel comfortable saying anything I wanted to here?
Didn't I used to have a journal to make up for that, when I felt uncomfortable here?
Didn't I used to cry more?
Didn't I used to cry less?
Didn't I used to make plans for how I could have $10,000 by time I turned 18?
Didn't I used to think I could do it?
Didn't I used to talk on the phone a lot more?
Didn't I used to want a penpal so badly?
Didn't I used to give everyone the benefit of the doubt?
Didn't I used to be much more imaginative than I am now?
I think it's funny though, because I get told to act my age a lot. Either because they think that I'm too mature, or too immature. But it's fitting, because all I want to do, all of the time, is try and get back what I've lost and hold onto what I've yet to receive. I can almost relate to other people my age that way, but in the end we always seem to be in two different places...
But there's a pattern to my days...one I've just now noticed.
I go to sleep when everyone else is waking up, thinking about the things I didn't do, the things I used to do, and the things I should have done. And when I wake up, while everyone is at the height of their productivity outside, I think about all of the things that I will do. Things that I want to do. And during the day and night, as I'm going against everyone else's schedule, I'm setting myself up for going to sleep.
I really do feel trapped.
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Jasmine has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
Jasmine is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Jasmine basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach." She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
In reference to Jasmine's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jasmine slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jasmine can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Jasmine is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.
Jasmine will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Jasmine believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Jasmine uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Jasmine does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Jasmine will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Jasmine is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jasmine doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant.
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Didn't I used to be the girl who cried over the idea of being late to school?
Didn't I used to be the girl who wrote poetry that everyone found brilliant?
Didn't I used to have AIM profiles that would get stolen by others, because they were so cool?
Didn't I used to go outside all of the time, riding my bike/walking/roller blading and singing?
Didn't I used to not be able to go anywhere without people knowing who I was? ("Hi Jasmine!" "Who are you? o_O")
Didn't I used to sing at the top of my lungs in shopping malls at Christmas, even though I knew I sung off-key?
Didn't I used to climb trees and save cats?
Didn't I used to call my grandmother every day?
Didn't I used to get called pretty every single day?
Didn't I used to get more sleep?
Didn't I used to update my livejournal at least once a day?
Didn't I used to have my LJ compared to a novel?
Didn't I used to feel comfortable saying anything I wanted to here?
Didn't I used to have a journal to make up for that, when I felt uncomfortable here?
Didn't I used to cry more?
Didn't I used to cry less?
Didn't I used to make plans for how I could have $10,000 by time I turned 18?
Didn't I used to think I could do it?
Didn't I used to talk on the phone a lot more?
Didn't I used to want a penpal so badly?
Didn't I used to give everyone the benefit of the doubt?
Didn't I used to be much more imaginative than I am now?
I think it's funny though, because I get told to act my age a lot. Either because they think that I'm too mature, or too immature. But it's fitting, because all I want to do, all of the time, is try and get back what I've lost and hold onto what I've yet to receive. I can almost relate to other people my age that way, but in the end we always seem to be in two different places...
But there's a pattern to my days...one I've just now noticed.
I go to sleep when everyone else is waking up, thinking about the things I didn't do, the things I used to do, and the things I should have done. And when I wake up, while everyone is at the height of their productivity outside, I think about all of the things that I will do. Things that I want to do. And during the day and night, as I'm going against everyone else's schedule, I'm setting myself up for going to sleep.
I really do feel trapped.
yay
_fullofgraceJasmine has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
Jasmine is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Jasmine basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach." She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.
In reference to Jasmine's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jasmine slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jasmine can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Jasmine is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.
Jasmine will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Jasmine believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.
Jasmine uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone. The circumstances when Jasmine does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise. Jasmine will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally. Jasmine is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jasmine doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others. Read more about her emotional expressiveness in the section on emotions and slant.
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