Jun. 22nd, 2004

girl says;

Jun. 22nd, 2004 05:06 am
spokenjade: (Default)
the most elite of us...

excerpt from 06-20-2004 entry:

But that got me thinking...and today, in response to a rant I'd made about a friend who had completely deleted me from their lives, I'd found a comment from them, telling me if I wanted to know why, I should e-mail them.

I was going to. I was writing the email out in my head. But then I changed my mind. I didn't want to know. I probably did something to piss them off, 'cause it happens so often lately, but they didn't do anything with me to try and fix it. They just completely made me go away. I want to find out my faults from someone who cares enough to want me to fix them.

That's really the first time I've done that. Not tried to fix something, or looked for a way to fix something..I know that if I'd said yes, I want to know, and e-mailed them, we probably would have worked it out...but it wouldn't have been for the best. I deserve someone who is going to take the first step, and e-mail ME. Even if I hurt them...

So, today, I realized this:

Some situations are better left unresolved.

The things I don't put here: are here.

Totally friends only there, so you'll have to register an account. Don't bother if you really don't want to read the things I don't want on this journal (or you can care less about me, but want to use the ej service, and that's fine). I actually pretty much know who is going to want to get an account there to read my entries there, and who won't, but I'm posting this just to be fair to everyone else.

girl says;

Jun. 22nd, 2004 09:54 pm
spokenjade: (bitch please; ushitora_icons)

Okay, now when I say I don't want to talk to you, and you e-mail me anyway, you're just trying to piss me off. ESPECIALLY when you're e-mailing me, after telling me you want no part of my life, and telling me you're upset about what I'm putting in my journal.

What the fuck are you reading it for?

Now, I try to be a nice person, and a good friend, but after you've fucked me over, there are no favors, there is no catering, and there's no Jasmine caring about your feelings. Living by my rules, as also described by Holly Lisle...

Once you're into my playground, and I've labeled you as one of the piranhas, you're a piranha damn it. If you want me to try and beat you, you're looking for trouble, because I will. I know the rules, I've played the game, and I always win.

I'm either your best friend, or your very worst enemy. Piranhas can't be ignored, and when I give the weaker ones a chance to take their drama somewhere else, they should - it's a rare option. If I give you the chance to run away, and get out of my sight, do it. And this goes for all you piranhas, not just the newbie to the pack.

I have gone through too much to play the games with people who will only hurt me. It's pointless. And I don't do pointless.


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